Well, here it is Halloween 2010 – and I’m feeling like I have been wearing a Mask for a very long time. This week’s assignment to write a Press Release has me reeling and peeling away layers of identity – in 42 years I have probably done more things that were either proscribed or expected than things I wanted to do. That’s true for most of us would guess. We start off living with the rules of our home, trying to meet expectations for some of the most complex things we will ever do in our lives – learning to walk and talk. Imagine that. Babies don’t feel pressure to do these things, they happen naturally most all of the time. But, unbeknown to the babies, there is very real pressure to see that these things happen in a timely manner – especially for new parents there can be significant social and familial pressure. The babies – well, they just go about their business but it’s not long before expectations become a real thing in our young world and just never seem to let up.
By the time we are 7 or 8, we start getting asked “What do you want to be when you grow up?” It seems like such an innocent question. And it really is. Often times, kids simply offer the information based on experiences – they observe a musician, a teacher, a dancer, a firefighter or police officer and they make an identification with that role as something they want to be. When I was a kid I wanted to be a teacher, an actor, a singer, a dancer, and a neurosurgeon. Not all at once but it was very definite. I still want to be all of these things! So if I’m “grown up” and I still don’t know what I want to be, how can I possibly think that my 8 year old daughter knows what she wants to be? She probably has a million ideas – me, I’m trying to figure out how much time is left to manifest something of myself; which makes it a bit of a challenge to write my Press Release.
After reading several of the week 5 blogs I realized that my DMP is still so OFF. And in fact, I am not sure I have yet discovered what it really is. Let me ask you all a question, are any of you afraid to accept or admit that what you want is something unexpected? I mean, something like – what you really want is to be a librarian or a newspaper columnist – rather than a double diamond emerald vice president in your network marketing company? Or, maybe the point is that your network marketing business achievements are a gateway to becoming the librarian or the newspaper columnist?
Which circles me me back to the masks metaphor. If we have spent our lives meeting the expectations of others. Be it going to college, getting a certain job, living a certain lifestyle, believing a certain set of beliefs – and now, our Master Keys class is asking us to be HONEST about what WE want – that is a tall order in my opinion. Writing a Press Release about what we have become when we have spent so little time really thinking about that since we became young adults and were, in many cases, pigeon holed by parents, teachers, guidance counselors, and such – setting aside “childhood dreams” and becoming “grown ups” – well, that’s taking off the masks that have been piled on with each new role we have taken on since that time.
So…. here it is, Halloween 2010 and instead of dressing up like someone or something else, I’m trying to go “disguised” as myself – just not sure who that is yet.